Where Light Bends

 

Where Light Bends

(by Saavanna Satheesan)

You look at me
And I see your smile
But the one behind you?
She cries.

Being scared, being broken
I see the teeth and the storms
Because I hold them all.
No one can do it alone.

And I agree.
They say I’m calm, that I don’t feel much
But how can I be untouched?
When I can carry all their weight.

I’m polished and patient.
Trained to reflect,
What the world wants to see
But no one asks what I see.

Behind the glass, I crack.
I dream of becoming a window
Of turning soft and open
Of being calm and free.

I wish light would pass through me
instead of bending back from me
I too want to be looked at
Not just into.

I hope someone sees
The fingerprints I never wiped away
To touch the surface and feel
The life and ask, ‘what about you?’

Because maybe, just maybe,
I am not glass at all.
Maybe I’m just a soul,
To see through everyone else – but me.

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